Women of Faith Are Women of Fire

Women have fire. I’m beginning to realize God gave women that specific fire. The fire of faith that learned to move mountains while walking through valleys. To persevere, to protect, to do the things we can’t see ourselves ever having the ability to do.

I  truly believe God loves the way a woman’s eyes light up with that fire. The passion that she reveals when God has given her a job to do. The laughter in the way her eyes sparkle when He’s provided the joy. God gives us that fire. God gives us that faith.

I wrote most of this on December 1, 2012. During one of the darkest times of my life. During one of the lowest valleys I never thought I’d find myself in. The next part of this journal entry is not pretty, but I’m going to share it anyway.

I just want it (the fire of faith) back. I threw it away. The second greatest gift God gave me and I threw it back in His face.

That is the end of the entry, but not the end of the story. See, I was stuck on the past. Thinking I had been such a woman of faith and wishing I could be her again. All the while God was trying to move me forward to truly set the fire ablaze within me. I fought Him for the next two years, asking Him why I wasn’t stronger. Why it was taking so long for me to grow. I really should have asked God for clarity so I could see the only one holding me up, was ME.

Women of faith are women of fire. It is our true gift from God while we walk this earth to be fully in love with Him, fully devoted to Him, fully obedient to His will for our lives and most of all able to fully trust Him with our lives. Every second of it. To every woman reading this, YOU ARE a WOMAN OF FIRE.


Casualties Of Spiritual War (The Innocents)

It seems God wants me to continue my Spiritual War posts based on firsthand experience. Focused strictly on the war itself, I forgot the truth of any war. Spiritual or otherwise, there are always casualties. For instance, my brothers.

The devil is a coward. You cannot win without knowing this important truth. Don’t go into the battle thinking at any point he will face you or even make an indirect attack on you. He is a COWARD. Instead, he will go after the ones you love. The ones who have had no hand in the war you’ve declared on him and his realm. Cowards go after the innocent. The ones so far removed from the battle they never see the attack coming.

Each battle has its own casualties, warriors and principalities (Eph 6:12). Instead of telling me he didn’t want me to help, my dad went on a tirade, yelling at my 26-year-old brother who had no idea what I was doing. He had a general idea I was going to do studies with him and our younger brother, but nothing beyond that.

As a prayer warrior, I was pushed over the edge by this information. In private, I called the devil out on his cowardice. I told him, he is defeated, that I can’t wait to see God cast him into hell after the final battle and that he has already lost. These little ‘victories’, like the attack on my brother are no victories at all. They are proof of his cowardice and his foretold failure.

I made a mistake when I started this war. That mistake was forgetting the devil is a coward and that he would never face me on the battlefield. I believed I was making a target of myself. I was wrong. I don’t dwell on my mistake, but I have learned from it.

I’m not backing down from my battle. Nor do I encourage anyone else to. I am going to fight until my last breath, but I cannot and will not leave those around me (the innocent) unprotected. I will pray harder, I will study more, I will continue falling in love with God until He brings me home and I will not stop fighting for those I love. I can’t save them, but God can.

Actions of Investment (Prayer Warriors Don’t Just Pray)

Prayer Warriors don’t just pray. They pray, they act and they invest. Actions of Investment is what I titled this post because I would never want anyone to misunderstand what I’ve written about prayer warriors.

Their first priority is to pray, however what kind of service would that be if there was no true action involved. God has called us to invest in others. Jesus lived his life investing in others by serving them.

Actions of Investment can range from simple encouraging text messages on a daily basis to hours of prayer time together. I already spoke of fighting for my family and praying for them is where I started. It isn’t even close to the end.

I am seeking God’s will in which studies to do with them on an individual basis. I want to invest in my family, I want to fight for my family and I want to be an example for my family. In my case, I am doing a study with my middle brother on the Screwtape Letters, by C.S. Lewis. I am reading from the action Bible with my youngest brother on how Jesus was abandoned by his friends right before being crucified. My youngest brother has been called a freak and only has one friend in school. I want him to see that Jesus suffered as we suffer. My parents are a different story. I am still seeking God’s will on whether I should do separate studies or one with both of them. Getting my parents to sit still at the same time is going to be all God.

I’m not sharing any of this to be seen as a true Christian or a good Christian. I’m living my life and sharing it as an example. If you don’t know where to start, I’m hoping any of this may help. God’s will be done.

My point remains the same. Actions in Investment. I am investing in my family because I know they are worth fighting for. I see the way their lives could be used to touch the lives of others if they just gave themselves up fully to God. Turned from their backsliding and made Him, Lord of their lives again. This is not my responsibility, however. I am to pray, act and invest. God will do His will in all of it. I trust Him and that is enough.

Will there be a time when God says, Enough. You’ve done what I’ve asked now leave the rest up to me? I know that time will come. I know God has not left me alone in this fight or that He expects me to change my family. I have to keep my FOCUS on God so my perspective never blurs. That will be a difficult time, but my family can be in no better hands. That is when the verse below will be my song and prayer.

Psalm 46:10 Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.

God is in charge and I praise Him for that.

Romans 12:2 (Transformed by the renewing of our minds)

Romans 12:2 Be not conformed to this world: but be yea transformed by the renewing of your mind…

This is why I laugh when people try to judge me, especially face to face. I’m not looking to please you, because I’d have to conform to do that. God made me unique and daily He transforms me into the woman I long to be. I renew my mind in God’s word so I am able to ignore the words of those trying to make me what they want me to be. I choose to be transformed. I’m free.

Quoting Eleanor Roosevelt,

“No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”

Call Me Crazy

I can’t see the devil, but I know when he is present in my life. The darkest of all emotions immediately swarm me and whichever one has the strongest hold in my life attacks. Anger, guilt, jealousy, wrath, strife, depression and many more.

I’ve learned that just because I can’t see him doesn’t mean I can’t fight him. I have stood looking around a room, tears in my eyes as the guilt, anger or depression encircles me. Then I have opened my mouth and these are some of the things I’ve said. “Step off. You have no power in my life. You don’t get to tell me how to feel. I am covered by the blood of Jesus, you don’t get to take that away. I cast you out in the name of Jesus’. Get lost.”

Call me crazy, but that’s how I fight the enemy when I know he is staring me down, waiting for me to break. In his arrogance thinking he has me right where he wants me. The Bible says, Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. (James 4:7)

We are not powerless against him or his minions when they attack. 1 John 4:4 Ye are of God, little children, and have overcome them, because greater is He who is in you than he who is in the world. If the power in me, by the Holy Spirit’s presence is greater than the enemy, why am I not standing up for myself and telling him to get lost.

I have brothers and sisters in Christ that look at me intrigued or bewildered when I tell them of these encounters. I don’t know why, but maybe what should be normal in the daily life of a believer is seen as crazy these days. I’m here to live for Christ and if the devil thinks he has a chance of stopping me, then it is my duty to cast him out whenever he shows his arrogant face.

Call me crazy, but I live my life refusing to fear the devil and his plans. I refuse to let him keep hold of me in any part of my life. Do I mess up sometimes? Yes. However, the more scripture I know the, sharper my sword is against him. I have told the enemy to get lost, to back down because God has a plan for me. I remind him that God has already crushed his skull and that he has already lost. As soon as I say these words, all those dark emotions leave, I cry in pure joy and freedom, knowing God is standing there with me, comforting me.

Call me crazy if you want, but this is my life. This is my truth.

Focusing on Christian growth and serving Others