God, I need you, but do I want you?

At fifteen years old I had a brother in Christ tell me I was a prayer warrior. In that moment my calling from God began.  I am a fixer. If something is wrong in another person’s life I want to make it right. That is NOT God’s calling for me and it took seventeen of my eighteen years as a believer to finally come to terms with that.  Just last year I finally said,  I can’t fix anyone or the issues they’re facing, but God, you can. As a prayer warrior it is my responsibility to go before the throne of God and intercede for whomever He places on my path. That is how I can “fix” things. Over the years I have struggled to figure out exactly how to pray.  I thought there was somewhere in the Bible that had step by step instructions. Talk about a flawed thought process. God made us unique. I am not supposed to pray the way you pray. I wanted to structure the most beautiful part of my relationship with God. God gives us freedom for a reason and one of those reasons is to be uniquely intimate with Him through prayer.

I found myself struggling to pray because I couldn’t figure out what God wanted me to say. One day I realized, God just wants me to talk to Him. To be myself and speak to Him like I would anyone else. As I matured in Christ, I began to see patterns in my prayers and it became disturbing. When I was discouraged, I would pray, God, I need you. It began to sicken me that I was in this beautiful relationship and all I wanted to do was take. Don’t misunderstand me, God doesn’t want us to filter ourselves or hold back and He certainly doesn’t run out of love, attention or affection to give us. However, any relationship is a two way street. If I wasn’t putting in the effort how was I going to grow in Christ. The moment I realized all this, I changed the word need to want. God, I want you. Right here, right now. Be here with me.

It would take me years to fully explain how changing one simple word, brought overwhelming blessings into my life and relationship with God. We will always need God, that came with the fall of Adam and Eve. The real decision is to WANT God. To want Him leading, teaching and growing you up in His will for your life.

Like the rest of us, you NEED God, but do you WANT God? Meditate on that and see where the Holy Spirit leads you.


How can you serve God and serve others in your own ministry

When we talk about having your own ministry or serving God and serving others we aren’t recommending to start a program.

God has given us specific talents, gifting stand abilities. His plan is for us to use these to glorify Him. Literally that others might see Him in our words, actions and lives.

Some may be gifted in speaking to others and leading them to Christ. Others more gifted in writing, caring, serving with a meal or an act of service.
If you we participated in various activities through church or volunteer work think about when you feel most alive. What ignites passion in you? This is a good indication what Gods purpose is for you. It is a window into the unique person God created you to be and Gives direction towards His plan for your serving Him.

The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of your hands. Psalm 138:8

Meditate on the Word; be still and know that He is God

Meditate on the Word and learn to be still

meditate on the word, be still and know that I am GodOne morning, as I was watching a precious brother-in-the-Lord, on T.V., he shared several Scriptures, the one I want to bring forth is John 15:19. “The Son is able to do nothing of Himself.”

As I saw that My Spirit jumped within me. Before we come to Jesus(receive Him as Savior and Lord) we are servants, we serve, whether it be our jobs our families, etc. In our jobs (even if we own the company), we serve ( if we want to be successful). Same in marriage, we serve one another.

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Relying on God or on technology: Christian Growth

Christian growth relying on God or technologyRecently Dad (Walt) and I have been talking about how especially in Africa the people draw together to pray – often large groups praying for someone who is sick or in need.
Why is it that they are so fervent in faith and here in America we are not quick to run to God? We live with technology at our fingertips. When we don’t feel good we can run to the doctor for medicine or run to google to self diagnose.
Even recently I was trying to set up Dad’s locksmith business on google businesses and my internet was having trouble which led to google suspending the account. What frustration! Here I was trying to help generate business traffic and I spent hours trying to just list the business.
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Worship in the garden of my heart: find close fellowship with Him

Meditate on the Word

Scripture Meditation

  • There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven; …He has made everything beautiful in His time. Ecclesiastes 3:1 & 11
  • The desert and the parched land will be glad; the wilderness will rejoice and blossom. Like the crocus it will burst into bloom, it will rejoice greatly and shout for joy. The glory of Lebanon will be given to it, the splendor of Carmel and Sharon; they will see the glory of the Lord, the splendor of our God. Isaiah 35:1

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